Tuesday, I was late for work, because there was a horrible accident on the Beltway.
I've gotta tell you, I have been in Texas a little over a year, and I am still trying to get used to the traffic jams and horrible accidents that seem to happen at the most inconvenient times! I thought that I was a very patient person until now. I guess it takes living in a different place for the Lord to show me just how far I still have to go...LOL
It's nothing that I could control; I called my sups, and they already knew about the accident, so I was cool. I am sure that I wasn't the only one late that day.
They also let me change my schedule around for the days that Angie was sick. She is feeling much better now, eating and everything. She is still sleeping a lot; that's probably because she is growing again. My girls are getting so tall; I barely have to help them get dressed in the mornings anymore! However, they are STILL kids, and they STILL need to be raised. They learn to become more manipulative as their vocabulary grows. Geez, they keep me on my toes!!! LOL You've gotta be sharp with these three!
The financial strain on Matthew and I with these darn cars has been putting a strain on our relationship, such as it is. We aren't speaking to each other, and that's not good. It's just that we are both tired. A lot of these things that happen to us we have absolutely no control over, they just happen. If it isn't one thing, it's another. I lash out in my frustration, and he just, well....withdraws even further into himself. What's a girl to do? I have got to keep a grateful attitude; for my kids' sake as well as my own. My life could be worse than it is. Still, I cannot help feeling like these things aren't fair, you know? I'm not wrong for feeling that way, just human. I wish that he were able to do more, and I know that he is doing the best that he can do, to the best of his ability. I just feel like most of the stress falls on me, and I have to make more sacrifices, because I am in the position to do so. There are few, if any, stable shoulders available for me to cry on, which forces me to pray A LOT. I tell ya, I simply cannot make it without Jesus. My husband cannot handle stress and pressure as well as I can. His shoulders aren't very stable. As a result, I feel unappreciated, and taken for granted. He rarely, if ever, shows any gratitude, or even speaks two words to me. I mean, I am his WIFE; don't we sleep in the same bed?!? At the same time, I know that he doesn't MEAN to be that way; it's just the way he is.
I am sorry, y'all. This is a very personal entry, and I am just being honest. And there are two sides to every story. This is only my side, and I may be wrong about how I am feeling. The question is, how am I to know for sure?
Adrian
4 comments:
Awww hope poor Angie is feeling better. I thought it was just Lubbock that had crappy drivers, traffic, accidents and CONSTANT road construction. Right now they have 4/6 of a brand new road torn up because they didn't put in the right drainage or something. And guess who is paying for it. NOT THEM. OUR TAX $$ are paying for these geniuses messups .
You have got to get your hubby to talk to you. I don't know how long you have been married but my Rich and I went through a very bad patch. We separated, almost divorce when our kids were little. I MADE him go to counseling with me, hoping he would say something to the counselor that he wouldn't say to me. He did NOT want to go. We only went 3 times. The counselor told us from the beginning that he couldn't save our marriage, he could only help us realize if it was WORTH saving. Believe it or not, he did get Rich to open up and talk TO ME. Long story short we worked it out. And 28 years later, we're still married. I know you know it's a 2 way street. I did learn A. you have to talk. B. Marriage is like a garden and it has to be tended to every day. I hope you guys can work through your rough patch. I'm sure you will, you have the Lord on your side. Anytime you need to talk. Just email me. I'm here. Take care of yourselves.
Hugs, Barb (sorry this is so long)
I sure hope you and your hubby sit down and talk. Try to take a time, if any that you two are not so stressed out. I'm sure he's feeling the same way. Talk. Maybe you two can have a nice calm normal conversation. I hopt it all works out. I'm so sorry. Kids, lol just ask me. They can drive a person crazy. I'm happy that Angie is feeling a little better. Hugs and prayers to you. I'll be thinking of you. Love Marla
hugs!!!! money sure does add strain to a marriage!!!
Becky
There is a saying that God only gives you what you can handle. I have never believed that. If someone created a drug that cured all illness, we would never need to seek a doctor. He doesn't give us these bad things, they just happen. But it is when we turn to Him, give these things to Him, that we are able to cope. Just keep turning to Him and it will work out my friend. It always does. Tammy
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