I went to University Of Houston Clear Lake to take the dispatcher skills test yesterday, and FAILED it!!!!! I just cannot seem to get over myself about this!!! Trying to prevent having a "bipolar paranoia" episode (the world is just out to get me!!!), I chalked this outcome up to three possible explanations:
A. There is something wrong with the typing test.
I came up with this explanation for several reasons. The first one is that on the last typing test I had taken, I scored 40 wpm!!! The second one is that ALL THE PEOPLE who were there with me taking the same test failed typing, and, like me, had to take the test over several times, AND STILL FAILED!!!!
B. I was tired.
After all, I sat with my daughter in school all the day before, had to drive 30+ miles to get to the testing site, had to WAIT TWO HOURS to take the test because the HR staff was attending a convocation at the school (you'd think they'd tell me that when I called!!!), and while I was waiting, I enjoyed a HUGE lunch at Quiznos Subs (YUMMY)!!!!
C. This job isn't the one for me.
I have a HABIT of not reading signs, or picking up on signals timely. I continue to push through things, even though everything around me is telling me to stop!!!! The bad weather on Monday, having to sit in with Maya on Tuesday, the car jacking on the interstate, and now the fact that in spite of all that waiting around, I didn't even pass the old typing test!!!! That would be enough for some, but not for me!!! DUUUHHH!!!
The HR lady sweetly advised me that I could return on Monday to re-take the test. I am seriously debating this because first of all, it's not like they're RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER from me! And secondly, what if I fail again? I would have wasted all that time (and gas) for nothing!
Thirdly, the training courses start on Monday. Why didn't anyone call us to let us know if the financial aid was approved or not??? Now I have to try and find that out on Monday morning, before 9:00! God, help me!!!
Gotta go now. I went shooting hoops with my hubby and the girls, and one of my hip muscles is letting me know that he's there!!!! It's going, "HELLLLOOOOOO!" Bye, y'all!!!!
12 comments:
I'm a new reader and wanted to comment. I'm sorry you failed the test, but if it is something you believe in, go for it.
Also, my husband is a very loyal christian, and I'm still trying to "let go" of my "myself" and not be so selfish...so, everytime I read a journal like this, it just pushes me that much harder to GO..I also, am trying to find this song Victory, I want to hear it. LOL
Take care
Tricia
I just started reading some of your journal, I'm happy you stopped by mine. I will continue to read it, it looks wonderful. I am a very strong woman and always have been. I don't get pushed around very often. Good luck with you and I hope you like Texas, I know it must be so hard to relocate. Take the test again, you'll do fine. http://journals.aol.com/am4039/life/
I will pray for you!!
Good Luck!!
No! I'm so sorry you failed! I think it was A! That's what it was, if everybody failed then something must be going on. At least you had Quiznos though. :)
No! I'm so sorry you failed! I think it was A! That's what it was, if everybody failed then something must be going on. At least you had Quiznos though. :)
I have a blog on this website too and I am so glad to read about someone going through similar trials and tribulations. I have 5 kids I am trying to help acheive sucess. Baby stay STRONG it will all work out!
Will continue to read your blog please feel free to visit mine.
Maybe this just means that you are to do something else. You never know.
Best of luck and stop beating yourself up.
Dianna
im sorry you failed that sucks! and victory is the jam i love that gospel song my mom just brought the gospel soundtrack with that on it.
awww..swweetie!!!! we all fail from time to time! hugs to you!!!
Becky
Hello,
My name is Priscilla and I am residing in the state of FLORIDA. I was just browsing the internet on AOL making an entry into my journal when I came across an article with one of your journal entries as one of the top favorites.
I just want to let you know that my prayers are with you and your family during your journey of rebuilding your lives. Some people take for granted what GOD has set forth for them whether it be a home, finances, or employment. I, for one are one of those people and I am on my way in changing that. GOD blesses us all and takes from us to let us know that we have to work unto him to please him in all that we do. He did not take from you and your family just to leave you without, but to make you and yours STRONGER in his WORD. When man defies GOD in one way or the other, ALL may suffer for a short period of time but for those who KNOW, WORSHIP, have FAITH in HIM, and FOLLOWS his WORD will soon be taken care of.
You and Your family keep that FAITH and continue to STRIVE and BE STRONG no matter what obstacles comes your way. GOD has the POWER to help you OVERCOME. DON"T GIVE UP.....GOD DID'T GIVE UP ON US AND HE IS STILL KEEPING THE FAITH IN US ALL TO ONE DAY WALK THAT NARROW ROAD WITH HIM ONE DAY!!!!
MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.....I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP YOU ALL IN MY PRAYERS...
BE BLESSED,
PRISCILLA(alwayselliott@ol.com)
hello,
My name is Amy a.k.a Visionary Diva!! I was just looking for new journals to read and came across yours. I just wanted to let you know that my prayers are with you and your family. I also saw that you like to read and I wanted to let you know that I have a journal dedicated to those of us who love to read. (my favorite is the bible though just like you). Anywho, if you ever get a chance stop by I would love to hear from you.
Amy
Now you out of all people should know the answer for the question you posed. God has something else in store for you. You did not "fail" even though I'm sure it may feel this way. Your blessing may be delayed, but it is NOT denied. The Lord knows what you stand in need of and you already know that He comes through EVERY time. Don't look at this as a failure; THIS LET-DOWN IS SIMPLY A SET-UP FOR YOUR BREAKTHROUGH.
Put it in God's hands!
Yours In Christ,
Lady K
http://journals.aol.com/katashawoolard/TheDIVAhood/
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